When you've reached the end of the line, you always want to go internal. The pain is breaking you down, the stress is eroding your resolve, you begin honing in on your own personal suffering. You forget about the mission, you forget about the brothers around you, you become tunnel-visioned. You can't breathe, you can't think, your muscles can't contract any harder. The human body can only take so much beating. After a while the mind begins shutting down, refusing to do anything else but focus on survival. You'll see the strongest and toughest guys, the most inspirational ones, the ones that never quit...everyone begins folding in. Attitudes quickly turn antagonistic, brothers stop pulling each other up, leaders abandon their teams. Extreme stress like this brings out the self-centeredness in everyone.
But then you tell yourself, "don't go internal." Remember that everyone around you is feeling the same thing. They all need help. Stop being overwhelmed and be aware of their pain. You need to ante up. At this point, no one gives a shit about how big your muscles are or how fast you can run or swim or how many people you've killed. You're just an individual instinct fighting to stay alive. And we all need to pull hard together if we're gonna make it.
But then you tell yourself, "don't go internal." Remember that everyone around you is feeling the same thing. They all need help. Stop being overwhelmed and be aware of their pain. You need to ante up. At this point, no one gives a shit about how big your muscles are or how fast you can run or swim or how many people you've killed. You're just an individual instinct fighting to stay alive. And we all need to pull hard together if we're gonna make it.
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